1 - The New Me!!!

Meet The New Me!!!

       Hello Everyone! I bet not a single one of you guys know me so I better introduce myself first. My name is Jade Ericson M. Adriano. Lately I've decided to go by the name Jason just to feel a little difference from my previous life. I don't mean literally my previous life. Rather, it is to say that I've had enough of my old dull life and finally decided to live my life to the fullest in this new life!

       So for you to understand the 'New Me', first, you must understand the way I was when I was still the 'Old Dull Me'. I grew up in a municipality called Hinunangan in Southern Leyte. Just in case you don't know, it is in Region VIII of the Philippines in Visayas. Comparing myself to my friends and acquaintances over there, I can say that I am just a little more talented than most. I won't say I'm very talented though. Just a little above the average standard.

       Back then, I didn't know about it. I thought that it was only natural for me, and little by little, I grew arrogant. I've always thought before that whatever I chose to do, I could do well. I was not entirely wrong though. Anything I wanted to do, I could do it to at least an average level. Be it studies, sports or music. The only downside is that I never truly excelled in one thing. When you have a lot of alternatives, you will be confused on where to pour your determination. I was satisfied on average alone, and once I gained a little experience, I got bored easily. I changed hobbies an innumerable number of times. Video games, studies, sports, musical instruments, movies, tv series, anime, manga and many others. I even went to reading e-books, love stories and light novels. But thinking back, I realized how shallow I was. I merely went with the flow, thinking that everything will turn out alright simply because it was me. But eventually, I ran out of things to do. Time caught up to me and High School graduation was just around the corner. I haven't given an ounce of thought about my future, because frankly, I had nothing I wanted to be. Neither a doctor nor an engineer, I never dreamed of an occupation suited for me. I was overconfident, thinking I could do anything. As a result, the selection of my course was influenced by my family and peers.

       I went to college in Palompon Institute of Technology in Palompon, Leyte, took the Marine Engineering course and went with the flow once more. But just like all my other failed hobbies, I got bored. Only then did I decide to think deeply. I came to an understanding that college was no joke. Once you started one, it is not a simple matter to quit it. It requires a certain amount of dedication and determination to finish, much more apply it once you start a career. But once I actually thought seriously about my future... I was terrified. I realized that I've been playing around a bit too much. A storm of emotion brewed in my heart. Anxiety, Fear, Regret, Anger. I  became restless as my heart grew heavier by the minute. Even my friends noticed through my expressions. I was obviously in low spirits. Although I performed the same in classes, I was acting differently. Time continued to pass and a multitude of depressing events happened in succession. My senile old math teacher forgot to record my scores in quizzes, making me fail until I personally rummaged through her files to search for my papers, to prove my validity for grades, some of which are the highest score in class. After that, someone I valued, who gave me respite in the absence of my family... broke my heart. More depressing than that, a certain giant storm rudely passed by our place causing mass destruction everywhere you lay your eyes. All those negative events bore negative emotions, piling up one after another, giving me a feeling enough for me to hurl. Yes, I was sick of everything in that place. A cutthroat battlefield where anyone would pull you down once you show an opening. It was suffocating beyond my ability to endure. Even nature itself is pulling on my leg. What a joke my life was. I was in a state of depression over the wasted time that I could have spent on better things. If not for my few trusted friends, I would have sunk too deep to recover from that predicament. From the bottom of my heart, I thanked them for showing me how to keep looking and moving forward. That in the face of adversity, one can overcome anything as long as he believes. So I decided to do as such. I left that place after giving my farewells. I was enlightened to the truth that one should plan out his life in advance. You don't get by life hoping things will turn out alright. The heavens favor only those who depend on themselves. Finally, I realized that in order to fully exert my effort and dedication, one must follow one's Passion.

       With the death of the old me that I left in that place, I was reborn in a place of boundless possibilities. With this new and final chance, I will do my best, giving nothing short of my very best. Watch me fulfill my life as I journey in this new found path towards the ultimate goal I've set for myself. No matter what obstacle, I've resolved myself to overcome it with all my might with the help of my family, friends, and most importantly God. The things that I said, I know, can only be proven with time. But I've already decided in my heart. 'New Me'! We can do it! Let's do our very best! :)